Thursday, August 19, 2010
A Week Later
It's a week later, and I am still missing Hattie terribly. I look at her pictures every day and try not to well up with tears. Sometimes I succeed. Today I finally unpacked the several boxes of bedding, food, toys, and paraphernalia I shipped ahead to myself to have soon after arrival. I am keeping everything; it's in a closet now, but I don't want it all to go to waste, whether I use it or donate it. I'm supported by the strength of my community, both here in Jeddah and throughout the world. Every day really does get a little bit easier. I still haven't been able to recount fully in writing what happened, because it's too heartbreaking. It was pure negligence and never should have happened. But, I can't change the past, so I have to keep moving forward. And I do. People have been kindly suggesting sources for cats and dogs to adopt, and I'm sure I will end up with one or the other soon. Cats are easy, because all you have to do is open your door to find one in need of a home. I met an adorable dog tonight, a Tibetan terrier, and his breeder is local. And I've heard of local rescue groups and individuals. So there are possibilities. The hardest thing is getting used to a routine without a dog. I don't have to take her out first thing in the morning or when I get home from work or before bedtime. I can leave food on the coffee table while I run to get something in the other room without fearing it will be discovered and re-appropriated in my short absence. But I truly miss those things. I miss having her at my feet while I am on the computer. Most of all I miss the companionship and having her by my side all day and all night. Each day is a new day, and her memory will forever live on.